Tightropes - Poem

Tightropes

We walk a tightrope

Fearful of falling to

Our death below

Fearful of falling to

A life all alone

A line thin as a razor

With love on one side

Hatred on the other

But I couldn’t bear to

Walk that line with

Without my Friend ,

Fighter , Comforter

My True Lover

They are one and the same

For  I walk with none other,

Than you , my love   

Toonie and The Dark Cloud --- Short Story

Toonie and the Dark Cloud

She had been born under a bad sign. A bad meteorological sign, that is. The day she came into the world, it was a dark and stormy night. Overused clichés aside , it was the truth. The weather man had predicted a 100% chance of heavy showers and scattered thunderstorms. It was the worst weather the city had seen in decades. The streets began to flood and the booms of thunder would rattle the windows.

But, that was the least of worries of a heavily pregnant young wife. She was just recently admitted, having found that her water had broke. The delivery went smoothly as could be expected, finally, she had given birth. However, the present nurses all agreed that it was a very strange child that was now before them .Naturally, no one dared to vocalize this, lest they appear shallow.

The baby was tiny, but it looked as if her head, hands and feet were too big for her. It would be years before she’d grow into them, if ever. To top it off, she had humongous eyes, with a teensy little line of a mouth. She looked like something out a cartoon. Stranger still, the infant was absolutely silent .She gave no cries or screams. She just sat there staring, right through the hospital staff. Imagine their surprise upon discovering that the child was staring at a small dark cloud that had appeared out of nowhere, and was now hovering over the newborn!

Wanting to keep composure, the doctors and the nurses ignored the little cloud went about their duties.  Their mouths said “She’s beautiful”, “She’s lovely”, but their minds said, “She’s a freak.” At that moment however, the dark cloud drenched them all, as if to say ‘I heard that ’.

Her mother however, was beside herself with joy. She didn’t notice the subtle disdain of the hospital staff  , nor did she see the small dark cloud that still hovered over her child. All she saw was her baby, how beautiful she was, the love and wonder in her large eyes.

“You remind me of a cartoon I used to watch as a kid. It was about a koala cub named Petunia, and she was my absolute favorite.”

This is how Petunia, ‘Toonie’ for short was ushered into this rollercoaster we call life.

Although just a baby, Toonie understood that this cloud was going to be a constant companion .When her parents took her home from the hospital, they were a little alarmed to see a cloud continually follow their daughter. When they put her in her bassinet, the cloud would descend low enough for Toonie to reach for its wispy ends with her baby fingers. Toonie was delighted, and after much activity of playing with her cloudy friend, she fell asleep.

Deeply concerned, Toonie’s parents tried their hardest to get rid of it. Her father tried to yank the cloud away, it responded by zapping his hand with miniature lightning bolts. Her mother tried to use a fire extinguisher, thinking that the foam might dissolve it. But the cloud just sneezed and then shrugged the foam off. It wasn’t going anywhere.

As Toonie grew up, she spent a lot of time with her cloud friend. Its’ clinginess was a bother to her parents for sure, but, what was a real bother was the reactions of people. Toonie was aware of being ridiculously petite with freakishly large eyes, but she didn’t believe she was any weirder than others. But when she would take walks, strangers would always stare and point at the troll child with a levitating cloud.

One passerby muttered to his friend to check out the midget with wombat eyes and a floating cloud.

Toonie jumped around excitedly, trying to get a glimpse of the ‘midget’ child they were talking about. Unfortunately, she saw no one. So she figured that it had probably left, not wanting to hear all those negative comments that had been said about it. 

They decided it was a fine day to play in the park .They invited some children their age to join them. Toonie and the cloud though, wanted to be respectful. So, they both went up to group of parents and their children walking on the sidewalk .She tried to appear as friendly as possible. “Hello, Ma’am, I was wondering if your kid and I could play together in a park.” The cloud bounced up and down in a happy greeting. The children’s parents glanced at Toonie and her cloud companion . My word what big eyes! Do they really want their precious children playing with a stumpy martian child and her weird cloud thing?

Avoiding eye contact, and faking the biggest smiles possible, they all said the same thing. “Um… thank you, but we all have plans.”

Toonie was puzzled, so she asked her parents, “Mother, Father how can they all have plans?  Doesn’t that seem a little strange to you?”

Her parents did not know how to answer, and after an awkward silence, Toonie quipped, “Oh boy, now I remember, there is a festival today! My, I must have seemed so rude to try to get them to break their plans to just to go to an ordinary park!”

So off Toonie and her cloud went to play  .They found the swings and Toonie pushed the cloud until it went so high that it slipped out of its seat. Then it was the clouds turn to push Toonie. They had a great time, her parents could hear them both laughing. The park was packed that day, but once people saw Toonie and her cloud, for some reason everyone let them have the park to themselves.

When they had tea parties , they would invite all the other little girls on the block , but no one would ever come .They figured maybe their dress code was a little too strict , after all the invitations did say –hat and gloves required . Stuffy maybe, but it was tradition. Toonie would wear her wide brimmed hat with a large green bow, and the cloud would borrow her pink pillbox hat with a veil. The cloud grumbled a little, it felt that it looked ridiculous. But, it wanted to be a gracious guest. The cloud couldn’t lift the teacup, so Toonie would hold it up high so it could drink. Following etiquette, it made sure to sip the tea demurely and kept its pinky up.

One day, they decided to go to the carnival. Not wanting to be a bad patron Toonie asked if the cloud had to pay admission. Not knowing the policy on stowaway clouds, the attendant let the cloud in for free, but said it had to buy plenty of snacks. This time the cloud did not grumble once, it was in a great mood. After riding the coaster, spinning in humongous teacups, swinging on the pendulum, Toonie and the cloud felt a little queasy. So they decided to take a break and get their faces painted.

Toonie opted for a bright orange tropical bird with its outstretched feathers to be painted on the left side of her cheek. The cloud chose a smiley face, but the paint couldn’t dry on its surface. So it just dripped down, leaving a trail of yellow paint when it followed Toonie to the next diversion.

When the two sat down to eat some cotton candy and watch the street shows, the other patrons assumed she was part of the freak show performers.  After having watched bearded ladies, giant babies, and a reptilian man, Toonie and the dark cloud were much less bizarre. After all, they assumed it was all part of an act.

Not wanting to disappoint their audience the pair came with a series of some impromptu acts. Toonie would do a rain dance and then the cloud would shower the audience. She would then pretend to be a mad scientist while the cloud darkened and put on a spectacular lightening show .That day they both earned about $60 from tips.

A young man, probably just starting college, had been watching the entire performance .While the rest of the small audience enjoyed the show, he looked apathetic. His arms were crossed and his lips were pulled into a tight scowl. His sour face continued even when the crowd had departed. He stood there for a while, sulking and staring at Toonie and the cloud. Finally, he could no longer handle it. 

He angrily charged forward until he was right in front of Toonie.

“Do you realize what you’ve done?!”  He was flailing his arms , shouting at the top of his lungs at little Toonie. He was of an average height, but she was so small that in comparison he looked like a bear towering over a baby fox.

Toonie was taken aback, she hung her head. “Yes, I’m sorry. I probably needed a permit to perform with my friend. Are you here to fine me?”

That just made him angrier, his face turned red and the veins in his neck began to show.

“That’s not what I am talking about!” “Don’t you realize that now, you’ll always be a freak to these people?” “You’ll always be a performing monkey!!”

“No, sir, I have no monkey, just a cloud.” “Adopting a monkey is very difficult these days.” she said with wide eyed honesty.

He sighed.

“Let’s try this again  ... You know that you have a cloud hanging over your head, don’t you?”

The young man was not prepared for her next answer.

“Oh of course! She’s my best friend; I named her Strawberry Sherbert , Sherbert for short. What did you name your cloud?” Toonie gave a toothless smile; she had just lost her two front baby teeth.

“My cloud? I don’t have a cloud, you do.”

Toonie gave a childish giggle.

“Oh really so what is that there?” She pointed up above him.

 The young man turned his neck .Bewildered, he saw that, up above his head was a shadow, above the shadow was a plumpish gray cloud. How long had that been there? His eyes darted back and forth from Toonie to Sorbet and then back to his own cloud again. He did this a few times. He counted, one cloud, two clouds. One cloud, two clouds. Sherbert and mine. His hands were shaking and his lips stammering . Toonie couldn’t understand the words he was saying. He kept staring at the cloud above him for several moments. Toonie used this time to buy different colored balloons with the money she had earned.

“Um, mister  ... I have to go now. My parents are going to worry if I’m gone too long.” Toonie then turned away and started to walk.

“Wait! You can’t go!” He was finally snapped out of his stupor. He frantically walked by her side and began to desperately fire off a round of questions.

“How long have you known about your cloud?”

“You mean, Sherbert? She was there when I was born.”

“How did you come to realize that you had a cloud?”

“It’s pretty hard not to notice Sherbert, she’s always around me”, Toonie and Sherbert shared a chuckle.

“So , what does it do then ? Is it just going to rain on me every day?” he wailed.

“No, not every day, only when it’s upset, or when it’s being playful. Don’t worry the water is a little cold but it’s always refreshing.”

“Will it ever zap me with lightening?”

“Sometimes, but it’s not very strong.”

The young man was near tears. He cried out in frustration “Why did this have to happen to me?

“Sir, don’t feel bad. Everyone is born with a dark cloud above them. I can see all the clouds above the people here in this carnival. But for some reason, everyone pretends that they are not there. I think that hurts the clouds feelings and the cloud rains on them until they are noticed.”

The young man felt little comfort. He sarcastically blurted out, “Well, isn’t this grand?”

“Yes it is! I never feel alone. I always have someone to play with or someone to listen to me . Guess what my favorite part is?”

“What?”

“After the thunderstorms, lightening, and the rain are all done, out comes the sunshine and the rainbows! .Just remember that, and you’ll be alright mister.”

Toonie forgave him for his outburst earlier; she knew he wasn’t angry, just sad. She then went on her way, and left the young man to his own thoughts. After some reflection, the young man mustered enough courage to begin walking to his car.

He never could put his finger on it, but he had known that something had been hanging over him his entire life. For him, life had been one endless, miserably rainy parade. Well,at least  now he knew where the rain was coming from. But like other people, he didn’t even know how to identify the root cause of his dark cloud. He knew even less on how to deal with it, let alone how to become chummy with it.

At last, he reached his car and was about to open the door. He looked back at the carnival from which he had come .He saw that strange, large eyed girl and Sherbert. The girl was clutching her precious balloons; my how she had bought a large cluster! All of that helium would periodically lift her above the ground .The cloud would fly to the very top of the highest balloon and gently push it back down , and then Toonie would be touching the ground again.

He lifted his eyes to stare squarely into the cloud he had tried so hard to ignore for years. Ok, no more hiding now. When he finally spoke, his voice was different. He was calm but resolute.

“Hello, it seems we never introduced ourselves. My name is Brian.”

“I think I will call you Max. That was the name of my brother. We used to be very close, but not anymore. Life is funny that way .Well, this time Max can’t shut me out anymore .Why don’t we go home now, Max?”

With that, ‘Max’ nodded made his way into the car. He hovered slightly to the right of his host and politely gave him a few rays of sunshine.

--Billy of the Sea --- Short Story

Billy of the Sea

Dark, thunderous clouds had finally abated, allowing us to take stock of the damage. The crewmen scurried about, attending to the various blows the ship sustained from the vicious maelstrom. No one had time to say it, but we all thought it. How are we alive?

We had believed ourselves dead men.  Even the veteran pirates aboard, once unshakable, had made their peace. A sobering thought had echoed through our minds. It mattered not how seasoned or hardened one was in the art of sailing. Good sailors constantly reminded themselves that the sea had no master. Lest she remind you with her violent black waves thrashing against the hull of your puny vessel , her howling winds shredding through weak , mortal skin, the grip of the sea pushing you further and further into the abyss . “You are at my mercy”, she screams, “You are my slave, I obey no one!”

Our captain, bore an impassive face despite the harrowing ordeal. I knew though, that deep down he was just as perturbed as we were. However, the lives of his men depended on him; he couldn’t afford to lose his wits now.

He began taking a head count of the remaining able bodied men, ordering the surgeon to attend to the wounded. As the Quartermaster, I inspected the sails, riggings and the keel of our vessel, The Gold Dagger. Thankfully the mast was intact, so were most of the riggings. The lifeboats however were completely destroyed. Worse yet, the canvas of our sails had been ripped straight through. Immediately I commanded the men to repair them.

The sea had become absolutely still .The night skies reflection was so clear, it seemed our ship was floating among the stars, among duplicate moons. The tranquility was surpassing. One felt at ease with the elements, a total clash with the terror felt not moments ago. , for some strange reason, I couldn’t relax. However, to not scare the crew, I kept those feelings to myself.

Relief spread among the entire crew on being told that all men survived. Any injuries sustained were minor, as were the injuries to the ship. With the exception of the sails, all of which were ripped to shreds. As we could not steer, we were incapacitated. It would take several hours to repair them. But, the weather was so calm, that it did not pose a great danger.

In celebration, the men began singing lively shanties at the top of their lungs. They sung of a valiant pirate king who ruled over a thousand ships. No one could master him, neither merchants nor armadas.  He plundered obscene amounts of Spanish gold, hoarding every last doubloon on the farthest reaches of the sea.  Urban lore held that it was buried to this day on an unknown island. Untold riches, just waiting to be claimed.

A few of my men believed the tale to be true. Greedy men relish the idea of mythic gold. But, I knew better. Wayfaring seamen were always prone to exaggeration. Common stories were embellished to the point of bearing no relation to original premise. The legend of the Pirate King and his hidden treasure was a legend. Nothing more.

Of course, I was thankful that sea shanties always roused the ship morale.  Being mutinied upon was a common occurrence among our lot, captains and quartermasters better be wary if they wished to survive.

There were important things I wished to discuss with the captain. Finally, it seemed that I would have the chance. Approaching his quarters, the cabin boy was busy sweeping up broken glass. The intricate stained glass mural of Spanish roses on the cabin doors had been entirely shattered. Such a pity, I always appreciated that small touch of color. Art was difficult to find on the open sea, and exceedingly more so among my rowdy pirate men.

The cabin boy, Wendell was his name, lifted his head to give me a timid smile. We always had a silent understanding among the two of us. When he first came to us, the crew wanted to throw him overboard. The last thing we needed was another prisoner mouth to feed was the general consensus. Him being a young scrawny boy; the odds were already against him that he wouldn’t survive scurvy. While he was surrounded by fearsome pirates Wendell looked only at me. His eyes pleaded with me to spare his life, declaring that he would prove himself strong despite appearances to the contrary. 

Somehow he knew I would understand.

After all, I too had been brought aboard under similar circumstances.

I ordered him under my tutelage and to serve as the cabin boy for the Captain. Some crewman accused me of returning to my ‘original soft upbringing‘. Ten lashes across their open backs delivered personally by me dispelled any doubts of my current tenacity.

I knew a part of Wendell felt scared to be all alone. Through my actions I showed that he need never feel scared around me. I sang lullabies to him every night the first month he was brought aboard. It was so that he need not cry himself to sleep as I had.

Wendell as it turned out, was a sharp boy. I taught him different sailors’ knots, reading the stars, sailing with the wind. Most importantly, I told him not to be afraid of the sea. Gain her trust, traverse her waters with confidence. On the other hand, never forget that the sea was our master. Not we over it.  Should he choose to forget that lesson, it would ask back our lives without mercy.

Wendell devoured my lessons; he will make an excellent sailor one day. I believe although technically our captive, he will move up the ranks. After all, I was one once, and look where I have gotten.

I knocked loudly on the cabins door, this was urgent. Despite the calm weather, my unpleasant foreboding was becoming worse.

“I was expecting you Billy. Come in,” said a gravelly voice. A tall, stocky man dressed in a stolen black naval officers uniform, motioned me to sit at his table. I heard the jingles of the silver clasps he wove into his long hair as he walked. His hair was a fiery auburn, wavy and long as that of a wild mane. It was easy to see why his enemies called him the Red Lion.

“Captain, I need to speak with you.”  It was curt, but I couldn’t waste time.

“Glass of rum?”

“No, thank you. I don’t drink in times of combat.”

“Combat?" he began to chuckle. “Yes, I suppose that accurately describes our ordeal of that wretched storm. But, Billy it is over now. Have a drink to celebrate.”

I was obstinate, I wasn’t here to socialize.

“Very well, Billy. What did you want to talk about?”

“Captain, that storm should’ve killed us.” “We all felt it; the sea was going to drag us to our deaths.”

“Yes, but that doesn’t explain your concern.”

“I feel like….” I slightly hesitated.

“Oh come now, Billy spit it out. You were so adamant about it in the beginning.”

“I feel this is just the beginning .There is something far worse in store for us. The maelstrom was a small taste of our final punishment.”

“Punishment? For what?”

“For decades the English, Spanish, and the Dutch have been battling for supremacy of the seas. They’ve waged countless wars over these waters. They all scramble to claim pieces of land and sea. They enslave their fellow man, spill human blood wantonly. All this, for a few precious coins.”

His eyes narrowed, speaking of naval powers that hunt us is not a subject we enjoy.

“.. I believe that the sea, she, I mean it, has had enough.”

“Do you now?” he replied with a mocking tone.

I continued on, resolute. My years of pirate association taught me that showing fear can mean your end.

“Fellow seamen report that massive maelstroms have increased. In this year alone we’ve had more than those in two hundred years before us.”

“A freak of nature.” he sounded bored.

I was trying to convince him of the potential gravity of the situation.

“Captain, that storm was terrifying. It was not due to its size.  It was terrifying because …..” I paused, trying to grasp the right word.

“..Because it was hateful.” the captain finished my sentence.

I was startled. “Exactly.” “The sea unleashed her hatred, rage and fury over us humans who believe foolishly that we own her.” I was annoyed, why didn’t he mention his feelings to me earlier?

He read my expression immediately and explained.

“Aye, I felt her anger. But I couldn’t let the men know. They are a superstitious lot already. Knowing this would terrify them.”

“But we must be less careless. The next course we set, I am taking more precautions. I will need the sea charts. I am going to find the less volatile wave pattern. Also, we aren’t going to raid any ships for a while until the situation calms itself.”

The captain laughed. “Always have a plan don’t you Billy, darling? I already knew you’d want them, so I sorted the charts for you.”

He walked over to a large black armoire raided from a nobleman’s ship. I had always admired its smooth black lacquer and complex carvings. As he turned the brass key to open the doors, I glanced around at the various trinkets we had stolen over the years. There were copper candelabras, silks from the Orient, Italian leathers, and glistening jeweled necklaces.  Solid gold goblets, rare coral bracelets, African diamond earrings as big as chandelier drops were strewn across more lacquered tables. Exotic spices and pungent perfumes tickled my senses.

There were also countless jars of acid, along with many jewel encrusted skulls and skeletons. Captain always had this peculiar hobby of collecting bones that he washed in acid. He then spent a great amount of his time affixing precious gems onto the bones surface. A small shudder went down my spine as I remember the other reason why he is called The Red Lion. Rumor had it that our Captain wasn’t above hunting ‘fresh samples’. The validity of this tale is still hotly disputed to this day.

The opulence of this tiny room was overwhelming.  The Red Lion had a taste for luxury that rivaled that of the French Kings. He made no attempt to hide his shameless affinity for such.

I on the other hand, was surrounded by sparkly things for most of my early life, so they held no interest to me.

For my share of the loot, I preferred knowledge. I’d scramble to find novels, poems, short stories, sailors logs, even private journals among the ship we raided. It kept me abreast of what was happening on the mainland and nourished my mind when the days seemed especially long. Any new information related to the sea was invaluable. I credit it for saving our lives on many occasions. The crewman thought I was daft to preserve what they saw were worthless pieces of paper. But how much were gold and jewels worth when you’re out at sea and unable to purchase not even a drop of rum?

Captain handed me a several rolled charts, I took them with haste. I was just preparing to leave when he pointed to the far end of his cabin. “Oh Billy, by the way I saved that for you from our last raid. I think it is just your size.” He had a devilish grin.

In excitement, I turned around, expecting a new sea log, or maybe even a cutlass. But my happy anticipation turned to horror.

He was pointing to a blue satin gown with fitted bodice waist trimmed with frills, ribbons and lace. I hadn’t even touched it, and I could feel the corset squeezing the every last breath out of my lungs.

Was he insane? Yes I had come from an upper class background, but what relation did I have to it now?! And why in the world would I want a dress?

I was not amused.

“Keep the dress Captain. As I remember frills have always looked better on you.”  My lips were pulled in a tight scowl, and I stormed out.

“I think you would look beautiful in it, my dear Wilhelmina.” He was giggling like a schoolboy who had played a biggest prank the schoolyard had ever seen. A stark contrast to the bloodthirsty pirate persona he had cultivated.

I growled fiercely at him. “It’s been Billy for years, Captain!”

Had he any understanding of all the effort I had gone through to lose my namesake? I was fortunate enough to have survived the raid that made me a captive. Then came the scurvy, rickets, and near beatings to death by my fellow shipmates.  The countless battles against every superpower navy known to man. Not to mention the near death experiences inflicted by the sea itself.

A gentleman’s daughter who had been bred to be elegant, polite and quiet among social circles had no chance of survival. That’s why I learned how to read the stars, how to hoist the sails, which creatures were safe to eat. I poured every drop of my blood, strength, and energy simply to survive.  It took years before I gradually moved up the ranks to become Quartermaster. My soft hands and soft mind were hardened by the spare life of a sailor.

I earned my right to be ‘Billy’. Though to some, a female pirate second to the captain was unheard of. At times I had to remind the crew that Billy, not Wilhelmina was their Quartermaster. And she was not to be trifled with.

Yet, despite the hardships I had bonded with the sea. I remember of a time when we made port off the coast of the West Indies. I was a second mate then. Captain then said that I was free to leave if I wished. He assumed a rich man’s daughter couldn’t last a month aboard his vessel. Instead, I became integrated into the crew, so, he felt I merited a chance at freedom. I chose to stay. As difficult as it was being the only woman above a rogue ship, it would be even harder trying to survive among land dwellers.

I had no longer had my family, our title, or any wealth to speak of. I knew that a young woman all by herself would more vulnerable on land than if she was at sea.  To top it off I would be starting from zero. At least, my shipmates had already taught me a ‘trade’. Besides, I was in love with the sea.

The ocean had become my friend. She taught me that despite my sheltered upbringing, I would have to learn to be tough. I could not expect her to pamper me just because I was a victim of unfortunate circumstances. As a reward for being loyal, she gave me opportunities to witness the most beautiful waters few had ever seen. How is it that the seas, being so intrinsically linked to this Earth, are at the same time so otherworldly? I marvel at her beauty, her intuition, her raw power. She’s heard me sing her praises, and curse her cruelty. My deepest thoughts, my hidden fears, I have shared them all with her.

Though I am her close friend, I have a healthy respect for her. When she is temperamental, one cannot arrogantly assume you can tame her. She can be gentle one moment, and then ruthless the next.

Dawn had passed and dusk was approaching, I should be sleeping. But first, I always make my usual nightly inspection of the ship. The sails were still not repaired. I could feel my anxiety start to rise; we were floating along by the whims of the sea. The second those sails were repaired we’d have to correct our course .I thought about dropping anchor but the depths prevented it. Odd. Since when is deep water so calm?

As I continue, I hear a few loud snores from the crew below the deck. If anyone were to ask me the hardest thing a former high society daughter had to adjust to on a pirate ship, I would say it is the snoring. Not their lack of personal hygiene, or their constant drunken stupors, or even the puke inducing cuisine. No, it's the snoring of your comrades that ring like a thousand foghorns.

Envious of their slumber, my body felt heavy and my eyes began to droop. But, I had to shake it off. It was my job scan the horizon for danger. Nothing. The sea was entirely flat.

As I began to walk back to my quarters, it is so quiet that I can hear every creak of the ships wood. I hear the sloshing of still water. We are safe, we are safe, I keep telling myself. Billy old girl, you’re worry too much. Go to bed, you won’t last long without rest.

Suddenly, I hear a crash. Immediately, I rush over in the sound’s direction thinking maybe we are under attack. But I see nothing. The sea is just as still as it’s been all day. Wonderful. Now I am losing my mind. But that crashing noise continues. And it sounds much closer.

Leaning over the deck, I am desperately trying to find out where that noise is coming from. My unpleasant foreboding has become exacerbated, as I am now running on adrenaline.

There is a strange object near the top of the water. It’s shiny. A cannonball? A mine? If so, why is it rising from the sea so quickly?  I lean closer out of the railing, careful to wedge my boot against the edge so as not to fall. I stare straight into it, only then do I realize what it is. It’s an eye. An eye the size of the ship’s helm. It stares right at me, blinking a few times, trying to make sense of what I am. I am frozen in this position. I could stab it with my knife, but it would not hurt this enormous creature.

I twist my head ever so slightly to see large, long tentacles, red as blood edging their way up the west hull of The Gold Dagger. The tentacles are like snakes constricting around the wood, slowly tightening their grip. If only I was near a cannon! A million scenarios run through my brain at the speed of light.

Maybe it will get bored and leave us be. Maybe it will just break a few minor things and then that’s it. Maybe we can scare if off. I refuse to consider the more realistic option. That it will wrap its tentacles completely around the ship and then drag us into the darkness.

The wind is beginning to pick up. If our sails were repaired we could sail out to shallower waters. The creature would follow us, but we’d have a chance of escape.  Suddenly it begins to make sense. The sea was not finished with tormenting us. The maelstrom was just the warning. She sliced through our ropes and sails to prevent escape. She destroyed the lifeboats, should we try to escape. Then she made the sea still, flat as a sheet.  So that we would drift quickly into open waters, right above a cave of a fearsome creature.

The tentacles had encased every breadth of our ship. With suckers as big as the gunpowder kegs, they latched themselves firmly on the hull. The exerted pressure stretched the wood; so piercing screeches had filled the air. Our ship resembled a tiny eel caught in the arms of a predator jelly fish. Paralyzed, awaiting death.

The entire crew was awake now, but no one could speak. Our feet and our hearts had momentarily frozen .

I gave a small glance to the Captain. Whatever disagreements we had, we had been through hell and high-water together. I owed him my life, since he spared me from having to walk the plank. I bowed my head. Captain, it’s been an honor.

It is morning now but the sky has turned black.  A black funnel cloud is accompanied by lightning and thunder. The high winds have whipped up rain that slices through our skin as does a sharp cutlass.

Now, I face the beast. Its head has risen from the water to far above the tip of the ships mast. It glares angrily down at us. There is no doubt now that judgment is nigh. I tell the sea to remember that I have always respected her. Should she decide to spare me I shall be eternally grateful . Should she send me to the depths , I will accept my fate with no complaint. An eerie wave of calm descends upon me , I close my eyes .

Planting my feet firmly in place and standing erect, I listen to the final sounds I will hear of this earth. The howling of the giant squid as it violently crushes our vessel . The sound of handcrafted wood being torn to pieces. The sound of cannons , barrels and supplies tossed about like marbles in a jar.

Let no one say that Quartermaster Billy of the Seas abandoned her crew. My eyes are still closed... I am thrown into the air, momentarily weightless. Then I feel it, a sharp blast of bitingly cold water washes over my entire body. Submerged, I hold my breath, waiting for her decision.

O my lovely sea, my life is in your hands. Survive or die, I have made my peace.